It driving me crazy..I HATE THIS FEELING..WTH,Why I have to suffer all this..Feeling so Pisses off..

I DONT WAN TO SEE HIM AGAIN..I DONT WAN TO BE REMIND OF THE PAST.

After my class ended,I went off to meet Jess and celine..We went to The Cathay to queue for Free Ben & Jerry Ice-cream..hahah..

The queue was Sooooo damn long..hahah..So many people queueing and waiting patienly for the Ice-cream..hahaha..My friends and I,we are special..=phahah..We got two cone of ice-cream each..=Dhahaha..lolz..

Then I rush off to meet my fren,to give her a surprise bday celebation..Hahahah..Happy bday,chanel..Hope u like the surprises=)Smile always=D..


Zouk..

I think,I am addicted to Pool..I went to play Pool last week and 2day,I went to Amk,k-pool to play with the juniors from 3pm-6pm..hahah...Not surprise,One person have to pay $11..hahah..There goes my money for 2day..hahah..

Then I went off to meet huiying..We went to Jurong Point coz she was looking for EVERLAST shoes...hahah..As we walk and shop around,I saw this Tank Top from PepperPlus that I have been looking for..hahah..And it is selling at $12..OMG,I wanted to buy so badly,so I decided to borrow money frm her..hahah..Finally,I owe a Tank Top..=Dhahaha..lolz..I am going to go back to buy more..=p..hahaha...

Then we continue walking,and we saw this accessories shop,selling items @ Buy 2 get 1 Free..hahah..we went in to take a look and we decided to buy a belt..hahah..I bought a white belt for myself and huiying bought a brown belt and a white bracklet..Wen she wear the white bracklet,it look gd in her...hahha..

Then we ahead off to food court to drag some bit..So hungry...=x..hahah..We ate Mini pot,nobble together..hahah..My first meal of the day..=X..hahha..

After finish eating,we continue,shopping..We pass-by 77Street and we went in..I was looking at the clothes then Huiying,suddenly came and ask me,"shld I pierce my ear"..hahah..I really dont noe,hw to ans her,so I sae,"your wish"...hahha..Then I went to try on some clothes..When I went back to look for her..I found out that she has decided to pierce her ear..hahha..I was tempted by her to pierce my ear too..hahha..Finally,I decided to pierce my ear too..hahah..

Next wishing list,is to highlight my hairs..hahah..lolz..Now waiting for it to grow longer..=)hahah..I wan to keep long hairs then I wanted to perm it..=phahah..

I feel like crying..I juz cant take it anymore..It hurt alot,wen I keep thinking of him...Why is this happening to me..It made me feel that,I am very useless and I dont worth and deserve to be love at all..

I try to pretend that nothing had happen and move on life,I use to have be4 u enter into my life..

But I keep thinking and misses u..

This is driving me crazy..

Tears keep falling down

I have been looking forward to 2day,DMIT Grande Finale..=p..I love the OGLs skit..Sooo Funny..hahah..I really enjoy the show..hahahha..Well done DMIT OGLs!!!=P

3 More day,School starting soon...But I dont feel like going back to school..Dont have the mood to study=x..Sianz..It is going to be a routine again..Go school,study,eat,work,sleep then the cycle repeat..hahah..

I hope,when sch start,It will not be as bad as I think..Jiayou RuFeng..

One of my favourite Song..=D

I love my hairs...So soft and striaght..hahah...I hope that I can maintain the straightness...hahaha...I think,I am growing fatter..=XGot to exercise more..And I am spending too much money le..hahahah...Time to save up!!!

My sixth sense is so accurate..

I went to koufu,2day with preet and preethi..I can sense that he will be in koufu..Then suddenly he appear..OMG..

And I hate that feeling,a mixed feeling of sadness and anger(Dont ask me,y)...So I walk out of koufu like nobody business..

I JUST DONT WAN TO SEE HIM..He make me,think of the past,the pain and the hurt..I dont wan to be a big stupid fool anymore..I dont wan to cry over this matter anymore..I dont wan to continue hurting myself anymore...

IF THIS CONTINUE,I THINK,I WILL REALLY GO MAD..

All I wish now,is to be happy and cheerful...4get abt the past and move on each day with a brand new start and have a simple life..That all I ask for...

I cant stop the tears frm falling down...

It has been a long time since I went back to work..I dont like the feeling..It is so stress,tiring and draining..There are so many things,waiting for me to be done...Alot of call back and follow up..Lukily,It is juz Part Time job..hahah...

Last Mon,She told me,how he feels abt the broke up after so long..That really really hurt alot to hear that,wen the person,you use to love so deeply,sae that the next day,after the broke up..But I noe,he has a reason for it..

Perhap,I dont deserve to be love at all..

10 April
I went to Toa Payoh with Preethi..We were looking for Cover Shoes..hahah..We saw alot of cheap stuffs...

From the same shop,Preethi,bought her cover shoes and I bought shorts..Haiz,I wanted to buy the similar cover shoes as preethi but dont have my size..Lolz...hahah..

Then on own way back to the MRT station,we walk pass by this beauty saloon,which was having promotion..For shaping eyebrow,it cost only $1..OMG,it is so cheap..hahah..So we went in,to have our eyebrow done and we also do Facial Threading..hahah..First time,I try out and it is very painful..=x..

Then we went to buy Chicken rice for dinner..hahah..After eating,I rush off to meet my fren in bugis..hahaha..Both of us wanted to go to Bugis street to buy clothes..hahah..After we have bought what we wanted,we went to orchard,Far East Plaze,7-Eleven to chill..We bought one bottle of voka and Mocha cheese chip to share..hahah..


11 April
I met my cousin,June..We went to Snip Avenue,beauty saloon in Boon keng,to pamper ourseleves..She got her nails painted and hairs dye and colour AND I done soft rebonding..hahah...A change of my hairstyle..hahah..New images..=p..I love my new hairstyle..hahaha..I felt so refresh and more confident in myself..=)Thank you,June,for this belated Present..=)hahah..Hope I'm looking better in this hairstyle..hahah..


TOday
I went to cathay,orchard with my kor..hahah..We went to watch movie,"The Unborn"..hahah..Horror Movie..Actually,I dont dare to watch Horror Movie..=X But I challenge myself to watch,to overcome my fears..lolz..hahah..Turn out,that show is nt scarely=p..hahah..lolz..

After watching,we went upstairs to play Pool..hahah..I keep hitting Strike....hahah..STRIKE IS MINE!!DONT HIT IT..hahahh...lolz..hahah..

After playing,we went down to DG,Juz asia for dinner..Then we wen to clark Query...We sit at the River bank of Singapore river,to chill..It is so cool and Peace..Another place to chill..hahah..

My boss juz call and ask me to go back to work on Monday..I dont noe,it this a gd new or bad news...hahah..Wait and see ba..

不值得


除了想你 除了爱你
hu ~ 我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记 整理心情
hu ~ 我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情 不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆 不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情 早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你 不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你
除了想你 除了爱你
hu ~ 我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记 打开心情
hu ~ 我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情 不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆 不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情 早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你 不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
不为你而放弃爱情
不为你而毁了心
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你

"HAPPY WITH THE BREAK UP..NO MORE BURDEN..NO MORE WORRIES.."I didnt noe,that I am a PEST and also a BURDEN to u.."FINALLY,FELT FREE.."What the hell,it sound like,I HAVE ROB YOUR FREEDOM...And I juz like a STUPID FOOL,dont noe what is going on and still care for u..

SOooo Sian,staying at home,doing nothing..=x..Luckily,I am meeting Jess in the afternoon for movie..=p..We went to the New Shopping Center beside Buigs Street..Hahhaah..We watch "Confessions Of A Shopaholic" for only $6,despite 2day is weekend..hahah...It is a nice show..After watching,we went behind Bugis Junction to eat Duck Rice..Then we sit down in Macdonald,chit-chat and gossip..hahahha...=p..

Time flies pass very fast,it time to head back home..But I dont feel like going home..=x..

So I took a bus from sembwang Interchange to Sembwang beach..It was so Quiet,Calm and Peace..But there are so many thing going through my mind..Tears keep falling down..I am so lost..

I juz wish there is a shoulder for me to lean on..

U have prove me wrong 2day..You made me reliease the Truth..

When you are Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never said I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side


When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?


When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you·re gone
The face I came to know is missing too


When you·re gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you


I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do


When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?


When you·re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too


And when you·re gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you


We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah


All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah


When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK


I mïss you

Why am I such a fool??Why am I so stubborn??Why I have to torture and make myself suffer??Why I keep hurting myself??What are all the tears falling down,everytime be4 I fall asleep??I wanted to shout..There is So much,I wanted to sae..Why cant,I stop hurting myself??Why I Still Misses him??Why I still care??Wat gone wrong in Me??

Life can be full of colours or full with darkness..It is u,who determine what u wan in life and hw u wan your life to be..You have to change yourself first be4 u can change the impression,people have on you..Dont juz sae,prove it through your action coz actions proves a thousand words..

There is alway a purposes in every setbacks and trials,and through it,it make you into a stronger person..

A lot of things has happen to me,one after another..I felt so hurt,lost and confuse..I totally lost my self-confident and myself..I can only blame myself for everything.. Sometime,I juz hope I can have a second chance for everything..

This few week,I dont have mood for anything..It is because of one of the Cellgroup leader big hugs..She has pick me up again..Juz her simple hugs,she makes me realise that I am not alone..someone is alway there for me=)

"Chance is not given,You got to earn it yourself"..Haiz..Can someone please explain to me,how,how, and how??I wanted to give up..But I Juz cant bear to let go..It Juz hurt so much..I dont noe,wat shld I do..Soo lost and confuse..

hahah..I have a lot fun 2day..I even playing Frisbee with the Juniors even after scolding them..lolz..Actually,I was really very disappointed with them,wen I found a contact list of all the Ogls in their working area.It shld be confidential and why it is left unattempted.Anyway,I also dont blame them coz I understand that we are all human being and we tend to 4get something at time.

hahah..Back to the fun part,playing Frisbee..hahah..We have to pass Frisbee to our opposite Neigbours..hahah..First time,I saw so many ways of passing a Frisbee..Hahaha.I didnt noe,using Taiji method can also pass Frisbee..lolz..

Then we play Monkey,using the Frisbee..hahah..I dont noe,how many time,Meiyi and Me become Monkey..hahah..All the guys gang up to bully us..='(..hahah..Juz Kidding=p..Actually beside playing Frisbee,there is also Match-Making Session happening at the same time..hahah..Lolz..Secret that cant be sae..hahaha..Lolz..Thank for the fun,joys and all the memorise..It has been since a long time,I have enjoy and laughing Non-stop..hahah..