Feeling so tired and drained..I am such a useless,stupid and good for nothing..Nothing I do,turn out the way,I Wanted..I really feel like giving myself up..I too tired le to try even harder..

Am I setting too high exception on myself??

I did tell you that I am "changing" and but you dun see the change??feel me being very fake??Fine up to you to think..I'm too tired to agrue back..Do u noe hw much I am struggling inside me to get over wat u have done to me..You shld noe,wat I am talking abt..Do u noe that it has a very big impact and bring about a big changes in my life..Do you noe,I am trying very hard to get over it..Do you really know hw I feel inside too.. I am not blaming you,I know it is a retribution..

"how can i trust you? and you can tell me you dun trust me. wth."..You shld ask yourself this question,there are something,it mean to be a secret between both of us..Why do u sae out?After wat u have done,do u think I can trust you again to tell u every single thing of my life..Wat if u spill the beans again...How you expect me to trust u and I didnt ask u to trust me..

"the only reason i still HAVE to talk to you is BECAUSE of preethi,diana and excos,if weren't for them i would have listen to everyone who told me to end this so called friend-a-me."..Dont take Preethi,diana and excos,as a reason,to talk to me or to end this so called friend-a-me,is YOUR PERSONAL DECISION..If you explain to them,why are u not talk to me,they will understand you..ANYWAY,I DONT NEED YOU AS MY FREN..I still have other frens,who I can talk to..It does nt matter to me anymore,if you are talk or nt talk to me..

"I dun go ard telling pple what kind of person you are. matter of fact is they tell me.go ahead badmouth me, i dun care."..PLEASE STOP ASSUME THINGS THAT ARE NOT TRUE..Please show me the prove,if u think I am badmouth abt u to other people..

"You just dunnoe how much i've worried abt every little problem we had since poly started. how much i wanna cry."How abt me,hv u thought of my feeling??Do u noe,after so many thing has happen,since last year,It really wake me up..I am trying my best to change to become a better person..But do u even appreciate me and give chance to accept me..Why wen you are not feeling well,y I even bother to buy chrysanthemum Tea for you..Do u noe that,wen I c you suffering as you are nt feel well,I feel the pain for u and I wanted to do something for you as fren coz I truly care for you but I was so scared that you may think,I am trying to act very nice to you..Do you noe that,I was so lost,I even call preethi,to ask her shld I buy and she told me to follow my heart..If u dont believe ask her yourself..

Perhap you are right,I have being very fake..But do u think,I willing wan to..Do u noe,hw much I wanted to cry and hw much I regert..Hw much,I wish to turn back the clock and change the history..But I noe,wat is done is done,it cant be undone..I juz wish to move on life,happily..Which I pretended,and I really HATE MYSELF..

Maybe we have different mindset and thinking..Perhap,it will be the best that,we never know each other..I am tired also.."There is also something im been trying and trying. i forgave you but i just cant forget" that is also wat I wanted to tell you after wat has happen..I am nt blame anyone,coz I noe,is all my fault and I brough it to myself..And I cant do anything abt it but to learn my lesson and I know that very clearly..

Since School reopen until now,2day is the first time,school started at 1pm..hahah...Coz Morning lesson was all cancel..lolz..hahah..But in the end,I still have to go school earlier to meet my teammates to edit the powerpint slides,that we will be present later..lolz..hahah..Everything was very rushing but in the end,it went very smoothly..Gd job,guys..=)

P.S super sorry,I lost my temper..=x Sorri..I noe that,I sld be more understanding and I shldn't do it coz u all also sacrific alot juz to prepare for 2day presentation...Sorri..

I went for briefing for OIPP briefing..I was so excited to go for Oversea Project Attachment..I want to go suzhou!!!..I want to ask my mum,can I go..But I was so scared,my mum will dispprove me frm going..Coz I am a gal and she worries for me..

Sometime,I really wish,I can go anywhere I like..

I dont wan to pretend anymore..

I juz wan to find back myself.

Soo tired and drained...I wish,I can have a long break..I hate this feeling..

So unlucky,I left my thumbdrive in the lab 2day..=(..Sian,Tml got to wake up early to take it back..=x..Please let me be independent...I have sae,I can wake up earlier myself and I can go and take my thumbdrive myself

I noe u all wan to be there for me but I really wan to depend on myself...I wish U all can respect my decision..I wan to learn to get use to the life being alone..I dont wish to be struck in between..Hope u guys understand=)

My ear hurt alot..So red and painful..I hope,it will get well soon=x..Cry in help='(